If you are new to sobriety or coming back in, you do not want to miss episode 32. In this podcast I reflect back when I got out of prison, and what my mentality was like coming back in from a relapse. I continue on to discuss one of the main “fears” in sobriety and ask the question, “what are some of your fears of getting sober?”
In episode 31 I had a really spiritual time interviewing Shannon and Randy outside on a 76 acre property that will soon be known as the Windmill Wellness Ranch. This podcast is the first of the many different topics I am going to bring to you from this amazing South Texas recovery center.
In episode 30 of the Keeping it Sober Podcast I talk about the moment when I realized I was completely done with drugs and alcohol and asked for help.
Episode 29 was the first live broadcast in the new Internet Radio station! I talk Tim Tebow and post the question, “Where do we start” in this realm of drug addiction in America?
What exactly is Synthetic Marijuana? In this episode I talk about “what we know” about the chemical compound that is taking America by storm! If you heard about “Spice,” then you have heard about Synthetic Marijuana, and if you haven’t, then you do not want to miss this episode!
In this episode I give you 5 reason why you should become a guest blogger and how to submit your story to my blog. If you want to share your story, then this the podcast for you!
Dear Heroin, I hate you with every ounce of me! You have destroyed my family and taken my son! I hate you Heroin! You took my sons soul! He forgot what I taught him, how much we all love and need him! How he was raised, the love of friendship, best friends and his siblings. I know you didn’t coming looking for him, he came to you. You are everywhere, every corner, no discrimination; poor, rich, black or white, oh how I HATE you! In our schools, our homes, you even find your way in to our rehabs. Heroin I hate you! You possessed my son, so precious and dear… you made him a liar, separated him from his sister, his brother and me! You took his morals, his pride and his life. He was alone and broken, you whispered, I can stop your pain…I will help you… I would look him in his eyes and cry, begging and still you won, he would laugh in my face, but I know it was you not my child! You took a mind so smart so beautiful and drove it insane! A puppet for you, the vomiting, shakes, the pain you thought you could keep him your slave. I hate that he met you, I’m glad that you’re gone. The pain you caused can never be undone, but with God’s grace and love you have not won!!! God will take my sons soul, you do not own it anymore! I now have a personal journey to stop you, to destroy you! I will find hope in the addict that wants to leave you. I will hold their heads as they vomit and listen when they scream. I will talk to them, pray for them and help them each day. My son may sit behind bars but you are no longer tearing up his arms! I hate you Heroin!! Words cannot describe the pain you have caused my family. The torment my son lives with, the guilt and shame. You are Hell on earth, misery for everyone you come in contact with. God is stronger than you and Cody will find his strength in the Lord. You may see this as a victory, my child locked away, 3 precious children’s lives forever changed, sunny is gone, a mother behind bars, our families in shreds, but see I have faith and you have been defeated! My child will see Heaven and I will be with him again, IN A PLACE YOU WILL NEVER BE WELCOME! The Lord Jesus is my savior and is stronger than any demon or devil, so in the name of Jesus Christ I rebuke you from all! I pray that every poppy seed on this earth dies and withers away. Go back to Hell where you belong Heroin! In the name of Jesus Christ I pray Amen.
I really enjoyed this podcast because it’s actually a real problem that I face in sobriety. I have lots of friends I drank and used with, and now I have lots of sober friends. I wasn’t sure how that would play-out on Facebook, but I did figure out how to filter old using friends and replace them with new sober friends without drama or deleting my account and starting over. Nobody likes a quitter!
I’m tired of the same old habits and activities that seem to get me know where in life. But before I make new and healthy challenges and changes I need to let go from everything from Facebook to old songs that I’ve been holding on to. There is a bunch, but here are nine things I let go of, starting today!
I want to say right off the bat that there is no easy answer to this question. That in the next thousand or so words I will not solve the problem of addiction treatment and that I may not even offer anything new to the subject, but still, I think that it is an important question to contemplate. I think it is important to see what the general preconceived notion is to why addiction treatment often times does not work the first time around, and to look at what we could possibly do to change this.
The general co-conscious is that when a person does not get clean and sober, it is their fault. Some people will say that they are not ready yet, or they are not being honest with themselves and are still denying the insanity of active addiction or any other number of things that lead to the conclusion that the addict is at fault for their not getting sober. And in full disclosure, I would tend to agree to a certain extent. I am of the belief that a person cannot get sober until they are ready to, but I also believe that we can create circumstances where we allow this readiness to be achieved during treatment.
The reason that I feel this way is because of what I have seen in my time in recovery. I have noticed that there are some people who come into drug treatment with no desire to stop and yet after a few months of being in a facility they begin to see that the problem isn’t the drugs or the alcohol, but the problem is themselves.
When this happens they then become ready to receive the help they need in order to overcome their addiction, but I believe that they may not have received it if they hadn’t been in treatment for as long as they were.
That is where I blame drug treatment for when the addict doesn’t get sober. When they only keep a person for 30 days and then unleash them back into the world. Yes, not everyone needs to even go to treatment to get sober, as many people around the world have gotten sober by simply walking into a meeting or a church, but for those who do go to treatment, an extended stay is more than likely necessary.
Think of it this way. Let’s say you are doing opiates. The withdrawal and then post-acute withdrawal symptoms are going to last a few weeks at the least. This means that you’ll maybe get a week or two in treatment where you don’t feel physically sick, meaning you have a week or two to actually begin to process what occurred in your addiction. I don’t know about you, but that wouldn’t have been long enough for me and if I wouldn’t have had 6 months in a treatment center I do not know if I would have been able to build the groundwork I needed to remain sober.
Yet we can’t really blame treatment centers for the length of the stay because at the end of the day they are a business and they can’t just let people stay forever because then they will go out of business. So when looking at it from this angle it is clear that the insurance company is also somewhat to blame here. They have systematically reduced the amount of time that they authorize for treatment over the past ten years and in doing so they don’t allow addicts the time needed to truly get help in treatment.
I could follow this chain down to its never-ending conclusion, but that would be pointless and so back to the question at hand, who is to blame for the addict’s failure, I think that the true answer to this question is that it depends on the situation.
There is no blanket answer to drug addiction or alcoholism. There is no pill that can be taken that will remove it from the individual, and that is because it isn’t a disease in the typical sense of the word, or at least as of it yet it hasn’t been discovered to be so.
It is a disease that affects a person spiritually, mentally, and physically, and I personally believe that it is the manifestation of a soul sickness, one that every person on this planet suffers from, but for the addict or alcoholic, it is expressed through the compulsive abuse of substances. So how do you actually go about creating a proper treatment plan that can take all of that into account? You can’t really. You can simple set up guidelines and a path and hope that the person walks down it.
In the end, the choice to get sober does rest with the addict. There are exceptions to this if the person has other co-occurring mental health issues that are unaddressed, but for the most part, an addict must make the decision that they want help, and until they make this decision, nothing can really be done. You can keep them in treatment for long stints and hope that they will realize how futile their existence has become, but even then if they don’t want to see it they won’t.
This is not to say that we shouldn’t keep trying and shouldn’t keep coming up with ways in which to better serve our alcoholic and addicted brethren, but that we should have realistic expectations on what the treatment process is. It is not a cure and it is not perfect. It does work for thousands of people, but there are much more that won’t get it. This is partially their own fault, partially their diseases’ fault, and partially the failing of our society who makes it difficult for addiction to be seen as a proper disease that should be treated as such. And I guess in the end it doesn’t really matter whose fault it is, the only thing that matters is that we try to help people to get sober.
Rose Lockinger is a passionate member of the recovery community. A rebel who found her cause, she uses blogging and social media to raise the awareness about the disease of addiction. She has visited all over North and South America. Single mom to two beautiful children she has learned parenting is without a doubt the most rewarding job in the world. Currently the Outreach Director at Stodzy Internet Marketing.